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I had an experience with my mom i want to share with you guys.

I asked her one time about the purpose of life and she said she thinks the purpose of life is to
find that out. My opinion is, i have to search, and whatever comes my way i will investigate and
through my continuous search eventually, i will find out.

As you can see, we have different opinions about life. She also thinks my devoting so much time in the computer
is a waste of time.

While i am writing this, i thought of putting her inside me and see what feelings and issues come up, but i should not have a preconceived judgment of her problem( because "i think i know" her problem). I just let go of the judgment and tried to look at things as they really are. What came up was "very busy but lost", i looked deeper about where i needed to take responsibility and i saw "not caring much about self", then "self-deception", then "self-honesty" is the core issue that she as me needs to come out.

Guess what? That is my core issue. Eureka!

So now when i do self -forgiveness for my self-deception and self-dishonesty, i am actually taking responsibility
for her also.

Today, i will go to her house to do some stuff i am late in doing (also one of my issues). Instead of me feeling bad about her having a different opinion, i feel better about her now.

I did not think about these things before. It just came up when i was trying to reply to Ann's blog. This gives me a realization that in supporting her as me i discover and support me too. In fact this is one of the message the dimensions gave me that in supporting others as me i will be supporting me too. WoooooW!!!

This is Life .